the things that keep crossing my mind re: immigration, integration, work ethics, culture shock, canada as countersolution to the american dream etc etc etc. are so tangled and obsessive, that requiring me to articulate them (to english speakers??) is not unsimilar to having an english graduate teach EFL to first graders. the future is theirs, but they don’t understand. i am mad with frustration and convinced my education was all in vain (and i am not a good teacher). they think, who’s this crazy lady saying stuff that makes no sense. i am having to distill my observations into clichees, repeat ad nauseam, trick them individually into paying attention. in the end it’s kinda fun, but only a drop drained off the ocean of mutual miscomprehension. we just learn so little so slow.